Having a bit of a fuck awful time at the moment. Pretty bummed out and stressed about my job. I had a meeting with my boss and let him know I’m having some issues. unfortunately, I’m in a position where any mistakes that I make have the potential to cost my company a lot of money. So, my boss is very concerned and in his words he “needs to stew about this.”
We left the meeting with him putting the burden back on me for what to do going forward and I need to come up with a plan for how to manage through this or absent myself from my duties until things level out. I am understandably freaked out, which doesn’t help the whole stop me from freaking out situation.
I didn’t even get a chance to tell him about the less serious, but still noteworthy side effects, like the occasional blinding headaches and bouts of nausea that will also have an effect on my performance and possibly my attendance.
I feel a bit lost.
On the bright side, at least I have something to talk to the shrink about on Thursday? :(
On the more technical? side, I’m titrating up again to 75mg. Doc wants me to stay here for a month and see how that goes. Last week this made me pretty happy because I don’t want to take more medication than I need to. Right now it makes me frustrated and I don’t think it’ll be enough and I don’t want to delay the process anymore than absolutely necessary.
Still no rash. Headaches are getting more frequent and worse. I had an actual migraine on Saturday, which I think owes as much to the stress as the drugs, but still. Not encouraging.