I was supposed to titrate up on Lamictal today, but considering that my distractibility seems to intensify and it gets harder to focus as the week goes on, I decided to wait until Saturday morning so I’d have two non-work days to acclimate to the dosage change. Hopefully that helps me settle.
I’m really scattered and restless today. Not depressed, not exactly, but anxious? I feel like I’m about to get caught for something I don’t remember doing, if that makes sense. I don’t know if this is ADHD or a reaction to the meds or a symptom of bipolar or because my period started today and I’m extra bloated and sore (also, I read a study that said female hormone fluctuations can fuck up how you react to meds every month. Need to ask my doctor), but I don’t like it much. I feel twitchy and uneasy in my own skin.
Work is stressful right now. There’s a lot happening and a lot I’m not getting done and that stresses me out even more. And when I’m stressed, I’m even more unfocused and more unproductive and then that of course adds to my ouroboros of stress feeding itself. I have to force myself to take breaks and not try to stay late every night trying to catch up at the expense of my sanity.
No sign of the RASH yet, and the itchies are gone for now. Headache still lurking but not manifesting. Really just want to go home and curl up around a warm cat.